hello(:
i'm happy happy girl!hawhaw.and i hope to stay this way.when slacking with shan,dave and pz yesterday.and yeah.i was super happy.talked to her yesterday and today(: i've been uber happy.and i want to for a long long time.i hate to sulk.it isnt good fo health.she said wth and i melt on the spot.and i cant wait to see her.its just the way she says it.ahhh!see.i'm going nuts again.i think i'm too soft with her.eh i gave in many times already la.and i hope that i'll start all over again.yay!a brand new start(: and i'm sure that everything will be fine.and we'll be just like before(: hawhaw.i'm feeling great today.haha.i shall stop here.till the next time(:







; I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand.

drive for all time-westlife

It's easy to fool around it's harder to keep the faith
But I wanna settle down no matter what it takes
If I ever break your heart if I ever do you wrong
I hope I never give you cause to doubt where you belong
If a million miles were between us
I'd want you to know
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean
I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time
Some people want it all some only want the fun
But I'm here to let you know that I'm all about the love
Some people let it show some people wait too long
Well I'm gonna tell you now that you're always number one
If a million miles were between us
I'd want you to know
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time
If I had to drive all day, take that flight
Across this ocean I'm coming home tonight
Don't let it play on your mind
Cause my devotion is for all time (:

hello(:
syf was damn dead yesterday.i guess my mood was shit la.some fucking apnn was grouped at one spot and damn stink and show attitude lor!wth.chicken backside la!and i guess smething else had to spoil my mood.bahh!whatever.i'm not bothered anymore.i'm not going to let some tiny shit bring me down.shan wants me to smile more.eh when you mix around with too may irritating saddist,how to smile?haiyer.many stuff are bothering me.what worries me even more is the coming SA!wahlao.i must pass accounts,history,ss,english,malay,and comb science.RARRH!means lesser time for fun and get my ass to work): damn.its for a few weeks only anyways.then june,can SLACK SLACK SLACK!hawhaw.bahh.i wish i didnt hear anything it from w.haiyer.its her choice so i've got nothing to lose right?oh wth.i dont want to be upset anymore.i must smile more!
after syf thing yesterday me,judy,audrey and bernice wanted to take 75 together.me and judy left bernice and audrey at the bustop for awhile then went to long john.and we happily talked and forgot abput the poor 2.hawhaw.my trip in 75 was uber fun please.we were havoc i tell you.not that i notice mr lau was in the bus.here's my advice,never stand opposite audrey wong in the bus.she play kungfu fighting each time the bus jerks.and who suffer?me and judy's toes.hawhaw.then she cha cha also la.my kungfu fighting partner is WAHLAO!now i'm aching from head to toe.bahh!we have to take 75 again one day.i didnt go to school today!i sprained my ankle and it hurts super badly): i triped over th corner of my bed.wah piang!till the next time(:




;the thoughts in my head,when we danced and we sang and we laughed all night.

if your hearts not in it-westlife(:


I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got something to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind
And there's nothing that I can do
To stop me losing you
I can't make you change your mind
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

hello(:
gosh.this week is damn RARRRH!so asshole.i cant keep lying to myself la.i dont feel okay la.i have this urge to press my blade on my hand and SLASH!but i dont see the point of doing that.its so passe for me.not like i can change anything that happened right.you shouldnt have made me believe.and at least tell me la.you wasted so much of my time.and it hurts even more to hear it from someone else): i beg you to make me hate you.i've tried so hard to.and i wanted to give up as a friend.you leave me with no choice.you broke your promise.so wht do you expect me to do?i've tried giving up,and stay far away.i'm sorry for whatever that happened.and i'll take the blame.i thank you for EVERYTHING.






;gone are the tears that i've cried.

hello(:
i guess i've been OKAY.yeah mann.i've done something bad but wth.its like a daily routine for me.seeing blood is fascinating i tell you.i'm not foolish or anything.nor am i saddist.i'm super hell of shits.RARRRH!so annoying mann.haiyer.and that person too!that 46(: i've been giving people blind codes.hawhaw.46 is getting me damn confused and stuff.wth la.yes?no?dont know?wahlao!i hate being in this situation la.somethings are better left unsaid.sigh): see!here i go again!wahpiang.i'm stuck to close to you by taufik(: its fucking WAH!heh.dave told me the next time i breakdown,i must go beside a tree.so asshole la.i've been having serious breakdowns this whole week.and today's the 13th.rarrh!i always hate the 13 of every month.bad things happen.REAL bad things.haiyer.hawhaw.shall stop here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUA SIHUI!(:


;but losing you has forced me to learn.

hello(:
gosh.i'm super annoyed.some people are so screwed please.i guess she cant find any other people to accuse la.HELLO!you guys are attached right?might as well just face it and dont go blaming me!so ass please.i think pz is super la!gosh.you fall into the slightest flirtation.so despo mann.rarrh!whatever la.i cant be bothered to entertain your fucking nonsense.show some intelligence mann!eh you damn smart right?you excel this excel that.basic sense never excel ar?dont make sense la.i think i was super blind.gosh.i can seriously puke right now.you're my biggest mistake la.omg.i shant talk about that asshole anymore.as you said,the next time i see you,you dont know me and i dont know you.you good!i dont give a damn la.hawhaw.
and theres some other people.sigh.she's getting me confused.that person isnt what i thought she is!gosh.then whats with the things she said?whatever she showed me?i held on for so long.at least have the courtesy to tell me la.i waited for so long,and suddenly BOOM!it all falls to pieces.sigh.i'm going to pretend that i never knew your secret,and that we were just like before.its hard for me to say that i'll get over it and move on.coz i know i wont.the things you said to me just wont go away.just like my to be gone 10166 wish):

keshia,you've screwed my life enough.i hope you fall into coma one day and be stupid for the rest of your life.australia wont be your option.you dont know me and i so dont know you.HAWHAW.i'm totally cool with that(: oh and good luck to you and anailuJ.gosh.how lame can you get mann.






;i can talk all night just to hear you breathe.

hello):
i didnt go to school today.had diarrhoea la.early in the morning la!so cb mann.and my ahem hurts.rarrrh!okay.i guess that isnt the only thing thats upsetting me.gosh.i cant stand it.this thing with ____ is messing with my brain.sucks la.sigh.i really dont know what to do.my brain is dead.and i'm super depressed.whatever la.you make me doubt you so much.dont come blaming me in the end.i've tried my best la.till the next time(:









;if your heart's not in it for real,please dont try to fake what you dont feel.

hello(:
its been years since i last posted.hawhaw.i guess not many interesting things happened.yeah.i wasnt talking to ___ for many days.which is really upsetting and stuff.i've made up my mind!i'm not going to give up on ____!i promise i wont.if ____ tells me to,then i promise that i will.hawhaw.see how nice i am.coz it was my fault and stuff.so i guess my 10166 fantasy wont happen.): that just sucks.but its for the best.i dont want to get hurt. and i dont want ____ to get hurt too.that'll just hurt me even more.and i think that ____ feelings are not there.as you said "why i've been wasting my time on someone who wont even care about me."
yeah.even though i've tried my best to give you what you need.i'll try and ty again.coz i dont plan to give up.(: not on you.i'm off now.till the next time(:





;sorry seems to be th hardest word.